Inside my mind, a cage, and I am the animal or prisoner
held captive by memories and visions of your smile
driving myself more and more insane, no time to recover
even sleeping keeps up the intensity of this trial.
While I wish not to let you go, I feel it is what must happen
for as much as I love you deeply, this needs more than just passion
communication is broken, it was in the past and still exist to this day
it is not fair or acceptable for you to dismiss everything that I say.
Because no matter what the situation I always listened to your concerns
your thoughts and your feelings, so why am I the one spurned?
My treatment of you is not like your past encounters
so why do you feel that the love I deserve must come with so much anger?
I am not intrigued by the back and forth consistency of turmoil and drama
I am not for the games of fighting so much, using words that create trauma
There is a reason why I hold my tongue, I say my words with intention
to convey a point of view, reach and understanding and resolution
Your desire to tear me down to prove your point pushes me away
your desire to dismiss my input to make yourself right creates dismay
misunderstandings should be approached with love as the start and finish
with you, that absence is apparent and makes my faith diminish
faith in that the rocky times can be better with someone who wants to learn
instead it feels like getting ready for war, another badge to earn
and when the smoke clears, exhaustion has set in
the castle of our love once standing tall, starts letting in the sand
Respect my voice, thoughts and feelings as you want yours respected
should not even have to be spoken, doing otherwise is not accepted
my love remains, whether you are truly ready for it is unknown
rather my lover fight for us to be right as a whole
I will be here if and when you are truly ready